for once in my life, i know.

i know what its like to need someone. to have them say goodbye and let go of your hand, and feel like the world has stopped, and in order to keep it turning, to make sure the sun sets and the rain falls from the sky and to keep your feet moving one step forward, two steps back,
you need them there, holding you, loving you, and needing you, too.

i know what its like to want someone. to have that irresistable urge to kiss them, or sit there and just stare into their eyes and think "this is real beauty." to want their hand on your hip and when they kiss you to run their fingers through your hair. i know that lust. i crave for it.

i know what its like to miss someone. to feel lost, empty, incomplete. [there are way too many words to describe that feeling.] but not just miss a lover - no no no - it hurts no matter who you miss. that pain stabs at you like a thousand and one knives and it kills and it strives and it just wants to be whole,
even if it cannot be.

i know what its like to love someone. now now, don't get your jumpers all in a bunch - i've never been in love. but i have loved and i have felt things i never thought i could imagine feeling in the root of my stomach - where i was being stabbed just a few moments ago. its magic, its lust, its trust. its everything.
it's beautiful.